Couldn’t really sleep in this Monday morning. Although, I still got pretty much a full 7 hours sleep anyways. I went to bed at like 10:30, so waking up at 5:15, and getting up around 6am is still pretty much a full 7 hours sleep. I did wake up to many thoughts of worry about the current state of my writing, and lack of income, and possibility of failure with the business. I do often have those concerns when getting up really early, and, I suppose they’re not really anything new. I used to have them, I remember when I used to get up super early to catch flights out of the country when I was consulting. And, to think of it, back then I was making lots of money. So, obviously, money is not the solution to that problem. I suppose doing work that you feel good about, and that you know your making a good effort at, or in other words, doing your best at. That’s where you need to be. Knowing that your in a position of power, and doing something actively that gets you what you want. Knowing, that your able to take care of yourself, and get the work done that needs to be done. I would love to be in a place, where I know that what I write is good enough to draw a fan base. That I can sit down easily, and write as much as I need to, and that it comes easily. That I feel good at my craft. That writing becomes like picking up a pair of drumsticks, and playing whatever flows through me. That’s the best analogy I’ve come up for where I want my writing to be. That it flows through me like drumming does, when I pick up and just play with a pair of drum sticks. I don’t have to think hard about what to play, it just comes out. I could play for hours and hours like that, with all different kinds of rhythms, and tempos, and styles. That’s how my writing should be. It should just flow out of me like music. Cool. I would like for it to be like that. So, I’m up early and a bit wired. I’m a bit at a loss of where to go next with the novel. I’m pretty much finished I think. Maybe a few more words, to tie some stuff out, then write a little more backstory, then start editing. I would like to know, how many words I can edit in a day. That would be nice to know. I know now, that I can crank out 5000 words before lunch every day, but how long does it take me to edit? More then 5000 I’m sure, but now that I’ve gone and written 90000+ words so far of rough draft, how long will it take me to get through that? Can I do it in a week? Maybe, today, that’s what I should start doing. And, where do I edit it? WriteMonkey is sort of nice for writing in, with the spellchecker and all. Maybe in Scrivener? We’ll have to try a couple of different places I suppose and see what happens. Scrivener might be a good one. Get things a bit more organized, and start moving it over there, scene by scene as you edit them. That’s one way to get it organized, and where you need it for formatting as well. It would give you a chance to get used to using the software, and see what the differences are between yWriter and Scrivener. So, today, it’s all about attitude. About getting your head into the write space. I don’t think, I will be writing 25000 words this week, like I did last week. I do think, I need to get some editing done. I do think, I need to flesh out some more back story and descriptive bits of the novel as I go along. Thinking of editing, maybe, I need to try some of those online tools I bookmarked earlier. I suppose, I shouldn’t get out of this journal this morning without mentioning that my eating and fitness and weight loss plans are at least going well. I haven’t been playing a lot of squash, but I have been walking, and I have been sticking to my no process foods and refined sugars regiment. That’s pretty cool. I seem to have hit 170 lbs over the weekend which was pretty awesome as well. Now to try and hit some writing goals as well. Get that damn book out there.

TIGERBLOOD: yes . . . at end of day DAILYMOOD: happy LOCATION: living room WORDSWRITTEN: 0 PUSHUPS: none TODO: write, edit, read TV: none BOOK: none GAME: none EXERCISE: walking 2 – 1 hour walks WEIGHT: 170 BREAKFAST: bacon & eggs
LUNCH: big ass salad DINNER: steak SNACKS: orange, grapes ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 10:30 AWAKE: 6:00