Morning Pages Entry – January 09, 2014

Feeling a little bit groggy today, this morning, as I always do, whenever my sleep gets interrupted to drive Sam to swimming at 5 am. But, the good news about all that is it’s only for a few more months, then the end comes to that nonsense forever for me. I told Sam, that once she was old enough for her regular drivers license, that I would NOT be driving her to anymore morning practices. She really seems to have no inclination to practice driving, and wasn’t too happy about driving herself to practices in the future. When Jennifer was learning, she wanted to drive all the time. Sam seems quite content to just be a little kid, comfortable with what she’s doing forever and ever. Kind of surprising a bit, but I guess every kid is different. Well, yesterday, I got into doing a few things that I don’t normally do. One was, I finally did some reading of a fiction book, that I’ve had on my phone for a while. I read 3 or 4 chapters for a little under an hour. It’s not a bad book “Artificial Evil”, written by another indie author. He’s pretty good on setting the atmosphere, but not too big on the action of things. I’m half way through the book, and they really haven’t done a whole lot, but you definitely get a sense of the type of world their end. The atmostphere sort of reminds me of the Borderlands video game series. I’m about half way through the book, and will probably actually finish this one. It’s part of what I need to do to improve my writing skills, that aside for actually writing. Reading other successful indie authors, gives me a pretty good idea of what kind of stuff is out there as competition for me. I didn’t read my “Selling Writing” book, but I plan to add that to my daily habits. At some point on my way back to bed from driving Sam, I had a bit of a panic attack, as I often do, when I’m up at such an early time (and often feeling vulnerable), and thought about “Oh my god, I seem powerless to solve my lack of writing problem.”. Then, almost immediately It occured to me that the solution was really really easy. I just need to write. And that immediately chased away the panic. Interesting! Writing really, is so simple, I just need to sit down and tell the story. Make up shit, tell some lies, but do it in an interesting and colorful way, that will be entertaining to people. At the very least, make it unique and fun, and go from there. Your next book will always be better, and the one after that will be better, and the one after that will be better still. Just beacuse your doing the work, and writing, and learning how to improve your skills like you would for anything. I think, part of the problem with my hesitation, may be the lack of instant gratification. I love squash so much, because, you get immediate feedback, and a good feeling from it. When you write however, it takes a while to get that feeling. At least a month to get things written, then published, then you need to get readers to buy, and give you feedback. I’m sure if I can get something halfway successful, then it will be a motivator. Like selling the links on sites became so easy for me to do, because I could see it working every day. People were placing orders, people we’re impressed with the sites, and people were giving me money. I felt good, and I had lots of money to go around. It becomes a self fufilling cycle. I need to get those early little successes, and feel that way again. The solution is easy . . . just write. Just write a little (or a lot) every day, and good things will happen. Join the 1000+ words thread in the Writers Cafe forum and start contributing. It at least get’s you interacting a bit with other writers, and who knows, good things can always come from working with others. But like you say, the solution is easy . . . just write just write just write. It doesn’t even have to be good, but it will get better as you go along. That’s inevitable. The stuff you write now, is actually not that bad I think. A little rough perhaps, but everytime I go back to read a bit of it, I’m actually usually pretty impressed.

LOCATION: home office WORDS WRITTEN: 0 PUSHUPS: 25 TODO: writing, squash league, reading, tony robbins TV: dr who, greys anatomy, bones BOOK: Artificial Evil GAME: none EXERCISE: YogaX WEIGHT: 176 BREAKFAST: Bacon & Eggs LUNCH: Big Ass Salad DINNER: Paleo Primal Pork SNACKS: grapes ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 12:00 am AWAKE: 5am & 8:30 am

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