Write for love. Write for fun. Write for me. Write write write. It’s a funny thing, the trouble a little concept can have in your brain. I’m wound way to tight when it comes to writing these days. I need to get back to where it was fun to write. Gotta get back, to where it felt guilty simply because it was fun to write. That’s where I need to be. Where writing was so cool and fun that I felt guilty for doing it. That’s where I need to be, and I think …. I KNOW I can get there. So, lets get there together. Stop worrying about the business, stop worrying about the marketing, stop worrying about your word count. Just make it easy. Make it fun. Make it for love. That’s what you need to do. So, I tried playing around a bit with WattPad yesterday, for a few reasons. It’s basically facebook for readers and writers. And, I think it would be better for me to be addicted to a social network that has to do with writing and reading, then something that just sucks me into a bunch of stuff that doesn’t really matter in my life anymore like drum corp and other stupid time wasters. You need to wrap your self in writing and reading. Interacting with the millions of readers on Wattpad would be good for helping to promote your books. You could build a list of readers that way. And, perhaps, those readers could translate into amazon readers. It’s worth a try at this point. Here I am, later in the day, and taking too long to get any decent writing done. It’s already 10 in the morning, and I’m just getting to my morning pages. I did do a little bit of reading this morning on Wattpad, which I think is good, since I haven’t really done any reading in my genre in a while, and if I’m going to write, then I do need to read more. So Wattpad gives me social interaction, it gives me a base of readers to attract to my work, it gives me books by other authors in my genre to read … so, those are all things that would be worthwhile I think. Things that I need to help get my head more into the writing space. Writing has been a bit of a struggle for a while now. I’ve just got too much pressure wrapped up in it, and I need to make it fun. Need to make it like an obsession that I need to be in. Whenever I’m obsessed about something, there’s not getting it out of my head. That’s something I’ve noticed, is that when I walk away from the writing, my story that I’m currently working on completely vacates my head, and my head becomes full of a bunch of other crap. Some of it is just the things that are going wrong in my life, or money, or people, or the business of writing. Or making money. How do I change what I think about all the time. How do I change what I obsess about all the time? That’s what I need to be able to do. Just imagine, if you could flip a switch in your head, so all you thank about was Chaz and Christa, and Alex. How do you do that. So, that you totally obsess about your writing and your books. So, that it consumes every waking moment of your life. How do you do that? Maybe get all the other shit in your head taken care of. Get the taxes done. Get your debt erased. Get your relationships all in order. How do we do all that? How do I get there. I need to find that place. You’ve put a lot of the pressure on your writing to solve those problems, and it’s sort of like a catch 22, since that pressure makes it harder to get to the writing. When I write, I need to be in the moment. I need to remove all that other crap from my brain, and just love being in the moment when I’m writing. All the advice needs to go, then inner critic needs to shut up, and the worries need to dissipate. Then, you can write. Or, maybe when you write, that stuff just goes away. Maybe the writing is the force, that drives all that out of your head. Just give in to it, and let it take you away. Let it be your salvation.

TIGERBLOOD: maybe DAILYMOOD: ok LOCATION: bayfield boat WORDSWRITTEN: 300 PUSHUPS: none TODO: write TV: none BOOK: The Happy Sunrise Home, 100 Days In Deadland, Shattered Worlds GAME: none EXERCISE: none WEIGHT: 170 BREAKFAST: bacon & eggs LUNCH: none DINNER: none SNACKS: 2 oranges, almonds, olives, raisins ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 12:00 AWAKE: 7:45