Morning Pages Entry – July 31, 2014

Wow, looks like this is the last day of July, and I suppose this is a long weekend coming up. Today, I’m supposed to go sailing with Wayne and Joyce at around 9:30. That should be fun. I’ve always wanted to go sailing with them, just to see how they do things. I’ve been on other boats for sure, and everyone has sort of their own way of doing things, but Wayne is a guy I’ve learned a lot about sailing from, and while he’s come out on my boat to give me sailing tips, I’ve never been out on his. So that should be interesting.  Although, as much as I will enjoy it I’m sure, it’s 3 or 4 hours out of my work day, and currently, I am really far behind the 8 ball in terms of word count. I’ve still got some editing to do on the third book in the series. The total word count of that one, is about 17K less then I had hoped. I thought, I could get it up to 50K … not sure why, I suppose I just wanted to get it to over 200 words for some reason. And, I’m supposed to have another 50K of a first draft together for emily to edit in 7 working days + 4 weekend days. Not sure, how I’m going to pull that off. I’m probably not going to hit the 50K, but at the writing my word output is stalled, I’m not even going to come close. Fucking eh! It’s not even Emily’s time, that I’m worried about, it’s my publishing schedule that’s bothering me. I want to have 50K out every three weeks. I want a new 200 page book out on Amazon every three weeks. I need to get my head out of my ass, and fight through all the stupid shit that is slowing me down, and just get the words out there. Stop being such a pussy for fucks sake, and do the writing. It’s just writing. Come up with some crazy ass ideas, and put them down. That’s it. Do the work. You really need that to happen. You’ve almost got your 3rd book out there. You need to get the 5K words done per day, and stop messing around about it. It’s not that big a deal to do the work. you just need to get off to a better start in the morning, I think, before all those worries and doubts that seem to follow my writing brain around start accumulating. I feel good, when I’m stitting here writing this shit. The words on the keyboard, are actually good therapy for me, and I need to carry that through to my book writing. Sure, that may take a little more thought, but not that much. And, sometimes, I think you think too much. It doesn’t have to be perfect, it’s a first draft for fucks sake. Just do it, and stop worrying about all the other nonsense. I would really like to have the 5K words done early in the day. Do you remember that week, that felt like that. How cool it was, to have 5K words done before noon every day. That was a pretty awesome feeling. The fact, that I did that, proves, that it’s possible. It proves, that I can put that many words of a first draft down on paper. And, I did it for 5 days in a row. That was a total of 25K words down on paper. And, it wasn’t really all that tough. I wasn’t working with a lot of structure at the time, but that’s ok. There’s no reason, I don’t think that a little bit of structure should be a problem at this point. Sure, you have a slightly better idea of where your going, but that’s ok. That should actually help. Having some sort of destination should be helpful, instead of just meandering around the place. Which, is what I was doing back then. And of course your still allowed to meander this time. I wonder, if it was the actual physical travelling across the map that made the difference last time. Like when they were on the road trip. You actually had them travelling across the country, and then across the bridge. You had pictures/maps/etc that you looked at occassionally that helped. Maybe you should have some pictures up on Google images to give you something to think about while your writing. That’s not a bad idea. Those could help out a bit.

TIGERBLOOD: little bit DAILYMOOD: good LOCATION: bayfield boat WORDSWRITTEN: 800? PUSHUPS: none TODO: write, sail, edit, publish TV: none BOOK: 100 Days In Deadland GAME: none EXERCISE: walked a bit WEIGHT: 170 BREAKFAST: bacon & eggs LUNCH: none DINNER: big ass salad SNACKS: orange, 1 lara bar, 2 naked bars, raspberries, apple, almonds, raisins ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 12:00 AWAKE: 7:30


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