Morning Pages Entry – May 06, 2014

So, there we go, yesterday I did my first of two days fasting for the week, and it went pretty easy. I did think about it a bit, but I didn’t obsess over it. If I do it enough, I’m sure, this can become a habit. The trick, is that, this time, I’m doing 600 calories, instead of zero on my fasting days. That’s the way your supposed to do it anyways. And, of course, I wasn’t hungry at all yesterday. It’s more of a mental thing to get through the day. It’s the times, when you feel like eating, just because your a bit bored, and want to keep your hands busy. But other then that, it’s a pretty easy day. And, definitely I do feel pretty energetic. I was cold last night walking with Sam and Zoey, but that’s what happens when I fast. When my body is not digesting food I do feel colder. But, the thing is, now I will get to the weight I want. It wasn’t all that hard, I didn’t obsess over it, and today on my non-fasting days, I will stick to my paleo diet and eat super healthy. It’s now been 67 days, counting today, that I’ve eaten any refined sugar, or junk food, or chocolate. I’m sure, that has to be a new record for me. Not that I’ve ever kept track of such a thing, but I highly doubt, that I’ve ever gone that many days without some sort of junk food. I have had a few glasses of wine in the process, but that’s not so bad. I do believe, that I may finally be on track to getting the weight down to where I want it. It’s exciting, to think, that I will finally get down to 155 pounds. I’m excited, to see what that actually looks like on me. I do need to start hitting the gym, or at least doing some body weight resistence exercises. I really wish my should and ankle would heal up faster then they are. I’m sure carrying less weight will help with the ankle, but it won’t do much for the shoulder. Maybe, I just need to start doing some work with it, to push it a bit. I suppose, that it really hasn’t been that long, since I’ve stopped playing. Has it been a month? I’m not sure. It feels like longer. I would love to be back on the squash courts again, but I would also like to do it injury free. And, I would like to be at 155 when I step back on the courts. If this 600 calorie fasting days work for me, then I should be able to drop it down to one day every week or every other week, just to maintain this weight. I’m sure it’s possible. Who, knows, maybe 150 is possible. I really don’t know, what my ideal weight is. I would like to have more muscle in the mix, but I don’t know where my body will settle to. I would think probably somewhere in the 150’s is good for me. At that weight, and with some muscle, it would be ideal for me. Once I get there, I will need some new goal, won’t I? Maybe, it will be to stick at that weight for a period of time. Can I hold 155 for a year or two or forever. Of course, the goal is to be forever. And, with muscle. That’s the trick. Get there with muscle. I haven’t complained about this for a while, but I’ve certainly been tired of having people (like Karen) in the house all week long. I do cheerish having the house to myself for times, especially during the week, when I’m doing my writing. It’s nice during the breaks, when I can just blast my music, and walk around and stretch or whatever. Yesterday I was a bit late going to bed again. Around midnight. That’s two nights in a row, but I don’t really feel all that tired. I thought I would be, but fasting days are always different. They may boost my overall energy somewhat. Certainly, on the fasting days, they boost my energy, but maybe, that will start to bleed over to other days. That would be cool. Maybe my need for sleep will drop a bit as well. That would be sort of cool. Lately, I’ve been finding, that 7 hours per night is fine. I feel pretty good with that. But, if it dropped to 6 or 6.5, I wouldn’t object. We’ll see how that goes.

TIGERBLOOD: yep DAILYMOOD: pretty good LOCATION: home office WORDSWRITTEN: none PUSHUPS: 2:00 plank TODO: editing TV: orphan black, game of thrones BOOK: none GAME: Batman Arkham City EXERCISE: walk 1 hour WEIGHT: 170 BREAKFAST: bacon & eggs LUNCH: none DINNER: none SNACKS: orange ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 12:00 AWAKE: 6:30


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