Morning Pages Entry – July 29, 2014

Write for love. Write for fun. Write for me. Write write write. It’s a funny thing, the trouble a little concept can have in your brain. I’m wound way to tight when it comes to writing these days. I need to get back to where it was fun to write. Gotta get back, to where it felt guilty simply because it was fun to write. That’s where I need to be. Where writing was so cool and fun that I felt guilty for doing it. That’s where I need to be, and I think …. I KNOW I can get there. Continue reading

Morning Pages Entry – July 28, 2014

So, can you do it? Here you are, up at the boat for a week all on your own. Nobody else’s demands, nobody needing you to cook, or clean, or do things on their schedule. Not other responsibilities, but yourself and your work. Can you do it? Do what you may ask? Why of course, can you write your ass of, and have a good time doing it. That’s the real question, and not the question I was just asking before I started to write that sentence. The question I was thinking when I started that sentence, was can you write like 10k words or some big number per day? And, if I really start to think along the lines of “write for love”, then the better question is the one I actually wrote … can you write your ass off and have a good time doing it. I really do enjoy writing on my own. For me, writing does seem to be a deeply personal thing. Something I do my best, when there is no one else around to bug the hell out of me. When, there’s no one else to pester me, or look at me, or ask me questions, or do whatever. For me, I think, that writing is a deeply personal and private affair. Of course, once the writing is done, then I want it to be in the hands of every damn person on the planet, but the process of creative creation, I think is a seriously personal and private one for me. Just having someone else in the building is incredibly distracting … at least, that’s the theory I have going on in my head at the moment, and, it’s one I think, that has some merit. So, it’s just a theory. A theory that needs pursuing … that needs proving actually. Can you write your ass of this week, and have a good time doing it. Can you get yourself back on schedule and get a shit load of stuff done. And still enjoy it. You should be able to … I hope. Now, there goes that damn inner critic barking his head off at me about stupid shit again. I need to silence that bastard, and every other bastard around me. Oh, and yes, I do need to do that one thing, and send Pat Lozon some info on getting started with writing on Kindle. We got talking about it the other day at the CPA reunion party, and it was kind of cool. He was pretty interested in submitting his books. I knew he had books written. He’d written a big one a few years ago, that I had read, but of course going the traditional publishing route, he was getting no love from the big publishers. So, he’s really, another perfect candidate for this sort of work. We got talking a bit, and he was pretty excited about it. So, today, send him off some stuff about the writing, and see if he can get going. I think, his book was big enough to break down into a series and set the first one to free. That would be pretty cool, if he could start to make a go of it. Now, back to you … let’s see this week, if we can really fall in love with the art of writing, and make something good to put out there for your readers all at the same time. I know, that my first attempt here may not be Stephen King kind of stuff, but there’s no reason, it shouldn’t start making a few bucks for you. At least, enough to buy yourself a better laptop to work on. This old one is doing some strange shit. It actually ran a chkdsk when I booted it up this morning. Not something I was too pleased about. So, you should get your ass and gear, and get your happy writing pants on, and make a masterpiece. Writing 10K today, would be pretty cool … and even cooler, if you could do a 10K every day for the next bunch of days. 50K in a week would be fucking remarkable. I would love to see that happen. I was testing the battery on the boat this morning, my new volt meter, and both batteries read fully charged. Not sure what that is about. I’ve got the battery charger off now, and waiting to see which one dissipates faster. This could be a good little interesting test, to see what happens. They were both are 13v without the charger on, and when I put the charger on they were around 13.3v. Interesting.

TIGERBLOOD: some DAILYMOOD: ok LOCATION: bayfield boat WORDSWRITTEN: 0 PUSHUPS: 4:00 wall sit TODO: write, email Pat, fix a few boat things TV: none BOOK: none GAME: none EXERCISE: none WEIGHT: 170 BREAKFAST: bacon & eggs LUNCH: none DINNER: steak, brussel sprouts SNACKS: 2 orange, grapes, almonds ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 3:00 AWAKE: 9:00


Morning Pages Entry – July 27, 2014

Well, yesterday was a bunch of fun. Came home from the boat, because we were having a get together with a bunch of our college class friends that we haven’t seen for like 12 years or so, at least not altogether at once. There was like 14 of us there, which considering we only graduated a class of 30 people is not too bad. It was at Mike and Sue Barrys place, and Lisa Widdup (Middleton) was there with here husband Rick, as well as Karen and I, and Glenn and Patty, John Kempe, Pat and Jane, Bill Shilson, Terry Conway, and Sandy Brush. Scotty (Piggy) couldn’t make it since he had some farm stuff to do, (apparently the wheat came in) which was kind of too bad, as he would have been fun to see. Mike and Sue have a really nice place almost next door to the riding club. Mike, is apparently on the board there now, and his kids have worked there as well. We walked down, to check out the sunset and the beach. There wasn’t much of a sunset unfortunately, but the beach was there. And we spent some time hanging around a bit. They were having a hawaiian luau when we were there. It was a pretty nice place. It even had squash courts as well … 2 of them. I didn’t know there were other squash courts in Sarnia. We stay, till about 11:30 or midnight, and headed home … was pretty cool seeing everyone there again. So, I’m a bit behind on the writing gig these days. I’ll need to prioritize the word count for the next few weeks. I need to do some planning up front, I think for the next novel. I was hoping to have the third one out my now. It’s pretty close, but not quite there yet. I do need to get words cranked out. I would really like to get to do my 25k per week for the next couple of weeks, so Emily has words to work with. Put scrivener, ywriter, and Google Drive and it and I’d be off to the races. It would be faster, and makes me a little more portable. I could truly work from a bunch of different places, including the picnic table up on the hill if I wanted to. That may not be such a bad thing. We’ll see how that goes. At least, you wouldn’t be stuck in the boat all the time doing your writing. And, up on the hill would get you away from the internet mostly, unless of course you just tethered up your phone. I kind of like the idea of working from up on the hill. There would be some nice breezes, and, maybe it would be a good change for you. Change always seems to work out pretty well in the writing gig. It changes your perspective a bit, and puts you in a better frame of mind. So, what the heck, maybe I will do that. I wonder how long the battery would last. It would likely, last at least 4 hours I would hope. Oh yea, and one more thing. I actually weighed my self yesterday for the first time in at least a week, thinking that I might have gained a bit with all the fruit and lara bars I’ve been eating lately, but I was pleasently surprised to see that I hadn’t. I was at 170 still, and I had already had breakfast. So no change really at all. Cool.

TIGERBLOOD: sure DAILYMOOD: pretty happy LOCATION: home office WORDSWRITTEN: 50 PUSHUPS: 2:00 plank TODO: write, go to boat, order laptop? TV: none BOOK: none GAME: galaga EXERCISE: none WEIGHT: 170 BREAKFAST: bacon & eggs & tomatoe LUNCH: none DINNER: hamburgers, fancy salad, veggies SNACKS: apple, almonds, grapes ALCOHOL: 2 beers BEDTIME: 2:00 am AWAKE: 8:30


Morning Pages Entry – July 26, 2014

Writing is fun. Or at least it should be for me. Why then, I wonder, does it feel so forced at times? I can only assume, that it has to do with the pressure around being successful with this. It seems to take the fun out of it. I do my best, to just focus on the joy/love/fun of writing when I’m doing it, but it’s always sort of there in the background. I would really like to come up with a way of blocking that shit out. The one obvious way to do that, would certainly be, to just make more money at it, but that’s not here yet. Certainly, if there was no pressure, and the money was coming in, then things would be somewhat different. Not totally of course, as there’s always some level of pressure, to maintain any level of success. But, at least there would be some sort of comfort zone or cushion to support you. That’s where I really need to be. With the third novel about to be finished. Here’s to hoping, I can write the last scene for it today. But once that’s out there, here’s to hoping, that I can achieve a certain level of success with a bit of marketing. I would prefer to just do the writing, but I think with only three novels out there, that it will take a bit of a push to get them selling. I really hope, that the zombie/apocalyptic genre will take off, like it’s supposed to. I’ll still need to do a cover for the book. Just a question of finding the right picture, and going from there. So, why not do a little brain storming this morning and see what I can come up with for the next scene I need to write. It’s basically a sequel scene. Chaz is had is little encounter in the Generals private lab regarding the freaks that he was transporting in the truck and abandoned in the graveyard. They put one of the zombies through the mutation process, and then applied the controlling drug to them. So, where to go with the sequel scene, showing Chaz’s reactions to the whole thing. I think, he should have a discussion with Alex, but without giving things away too much. Maybe over the radio … if they can, without giving too much of their plan for rescuing Christa away over the radio waves. It would have to be something like, where Chaz is wondering if maybe he should really rescue her or not. They would both have to make some compelling arguments one way or the other. It would be centered around balancing the life of one person (zombie/mutant/freak) vs stopping an entire war. Which seems like an easy situation, but then you can throw the whole “freak hugger” taking over the government, without giving Alex too much information …. or not. You could let him know more. I should check the chapter where they connect with Montgomery as a prisoner. Would Alex be swayed, if he knew what the shadow government had in mind? If he knew the vice president was being controlled by a third faction. Then what? Would Alex change his mind. Chaz has seen some things, that make him feel bad for Christa. The way patient zero was treated, the plans for imprisoning here indefinitely. Those things would sway Alex as well. What could Chaz say to Alex to make him reconsider. Maybe, get him to think about his family, if he still has a family living. Or perhaps, about the family he could have some day in a world that’s not controlled by freaks. That’s the way to go with it. Alex doesn’t know, if he still has any family living or dead. It’s been so long, since he’s seen them. But what about his chance for a family of his own. Get him thinking about that. Chaz could reflect somewhat his own family, and what they mean to him, and how much he’s lost. How maybe, he still hasn’t given up hope for them. Alex will want a family of his own someday. That would work, and maybe sway Alex a bit. But, it still will come back to their feelings not just for Christa, but as soldiers, what exactly are they fighting for. For a world where a whole species is enslaved? That’s not what their country is about. Do they want another civil war fought over that. There has to be a better way. The freak huggers will want to live in peace with the mutated zombies, but the people like the General will want to enslave and control them all. Alex and Chaz may believe, that there is a way to let them mutate, without enslaving them, or allowing them to take over. Which, is sort of the premise for the rest of your books really. That is letting them mutate without a controlling drug and taking over.

TIGERBLOOD: some DAILYMOOD: fighting to get the words out LOCATION: bayfield boat WORDSWRITTEN: 2000+ PUSHUPS: none TODO: write, go home, CPA reunion TV: friday night lights BOOK: none GAME: none EXERCISE: none WEIGHT: 170 BREAKFAST: bacon & eggs LUNCH: none DINNER: big ass salad SNACKS: 2 oranges, blueberries, 1 apple, almonds, raisins ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 12:00 AWAKE: 7:15


Morning Pages Entry – July 25, 2014

Yesterday was good. Today will be even better. Yesterday was over 3000 words writing in a good frame of mind. Today, I will do even better. Not to put too much pressure on, but I will do better. Either more words or better words. Either will work for me. That’s something to look forward to for sure. That is, the day when I no longer worry about getting a fixed number of words out there, but actually concentrate on the quality of the words. And, that’s not something you can ever stop getting better at. I think, that even the great ones struggled with that. The writing every day, will become habit. At least a thousand words … even on weekends, and not counting this morning pages. While these will always get done, and they don’t take me that long to do, it would seem unfair to include these words. So, I was also thinking, that I should start doing some micro plotting while I’m writing these pages, just to get things flowing, I will have to give that some thought here. Nothing is springing to mind at the moment, but figuring out where to go next with Chaz now having seen a mutation take place before his eyes could be interesting. I was think, that the room would be flooded with a basic controlling drug, so that the General could case the girl to do harm to herself. The girl zombie, that is, that just underwent a transformation into an almost normal human. Maybe, she could do something that scares them a bit, but in a non threatening way. Which causes the General to control her into turning onto herself. That wouldn’t make the General look totally like a psychopath in the process, since that’s not really my intention. I’m looking for bad guys, that are not totally bad, but are more complex. Like bad guys in real life, that believe what they are doing is good, and totally justifable in their own mind … like a psychopath I suppose. Then of course, the General could go on a bit about how having a whole troop of controllable freaks would actually be better for the humans. It would be like having slaves they could do whatever they wanted with. They could fight in armies, or do your dishes. Whatever you needed them to do. The question with going that way, is does it tip my hand too early with where I want the series to go. Probably not. You were going there in the epilogue anyways, so why not suggest at it earlier now. That still works I believe. I read some comments yesterday on the Kindling FB page, which were sort of promising. He was talking about how the zombie crowd will read just about anything. That they were ravenous readers (ha … just like the freaks they enjoy reading about). That’s a cool thought. I do hope they are reavenous, and that my series starts to pick up. And it becomes popular with the crowd of readers. This is a genre, that still has a lot of legs in it, I suspect. Kindle Unlimited is an interesting twist on the whole kindle marketing thing. Early indications are showing, that it’s having positive results for those with books enrolled into it. Something like 15 of the top 100 paid books on Amazon where in KU when it started, and only about a week into it, and it appears that something like 45 of the top 100 are now KU books. Of course, with the first 30 days free in the program, there could be a lot of looky-loos that are just taking advantage of the 30 days, and won’t sign up for real. I should likely throw a book into that ring. Maybe that boating book I was starting to put together. I should finish that one up, and throw it in to see what happens. Could be sort of cool. I liked the cover I had for it too. I am in boating season now, and it would be sort of fun to throw that one into the ring, just for the hell of it. Maybe, I could get it beefed up enough for Emily to look at it. If I can get my word count up that is. Not to worry, I will get there. I’m sure I could have gotten to 5K yesterday, with a little more focus. I was organizing a bit too much yesterday. If I can get to 2500, before we head with with wayne and joyce for lunch today that would be good. Let’s get going.

TIGERBLOOD: yep DAILYMOOD: good LOCATION: boat bayfield WORDSWRITTEN: 3000+ PUSHUPS: 2:15 wall sit TODO: write, lunch in zurich TV: friday night lights BOOK: none GAME: none EXERCISE: none WEIGHT: 170 BREAKFAST: bacon & eggs LUNCH: none DINNER: big ass salad with shish ka bob meat SNACKS: orange, apple, blueberries, 2 lara bars, 2 naked bars ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 1:00 AWAKE: 7:30


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