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Morning Pages entry July 20, 2014

Time to make a decision about what to do with these journal pages, in terms of using them on the blog. It would be nice to have some content on there, and see what kind of traffic it attracts. And leveraging content you’ve already setup would make perfect sense. But, there is a lot of rambling that goes on with these pages as well, and I’m not sure of what kind of value they offer to the casual visitor. I would like it, if they drew in some traffic, which could be funneled to my books on amazon, and then result in purchases of those books, but I’m not sure how connected those two ideas really are. That’s part of the problem, I think here. Another problem going on here, is not just the rambling of these pages, but the indecision of where to go with things sometimes. When I’m not writing much, like I haven’t been during the last week of the families visit, then I feel like I don’t have as much to share in these pages. Like I’m missing a part of my life that has things going on it it. Writing as much of a struggle as it is, is still a big part of who I am. And even if I don’t get as much writing in as I would like to, then I think, that writing about the struggle of getting words down on the page is as much a part of the process as anything. And, I must admit, that it is still a struggle for me to get things on the page for the novel. These words, this morning are not as difficult, but again, I’ve talked about this several different times, and they are just a different mindset. They mean something different, as they’re not really designed for public consumption. I would very much like to have the ease of writing the novel, the way I it’s so easy to write these pages. I think, that I am moving in that direction, and that I will eventually get there, but it will take a little more time and effort. To be able to just sit, in a relaxed manner and know what I want to write, and who I want to write about, and how those characters feel about the different situtaions as they evolve is the ultimate goal. To be able to just sit, and throw yourself into the moment and create a story that flows along with some sort of interest is the end game. Somewhere between a pantser and a plotter. I am still a little unsure as to where the needle lies between those two extremes, but I am learning where that is. Just keep believing and you’ll find it’s resting place. Although, it will probably never stay in the same place indefinitely. Today, Mark, Veronica, and Una head back to Ireland. That’s kind of a bummer, will be a little upsetting for sure, but it’s part of the way back to a regular routine. A regular routine, which is not all that exciting, but one that needs improvement. Improvement, that can only come from becoming a better writer. Which you will get to, if you keep showing up, and putting your butt down and writing writing writing. Steve, Patty & Tristan are leaving tomorrow, which will be a bit of a bummer as well. Gonna miss having those guys around. It’s been a great week of visiting everyone, and even though it’s been distubtive to my regular writing routine, it’s been a lot of fun. Even though, the weather at the boat wasn’t the best we’ve ever had, it was very nice having them there with us during it all. We did get to go out for a bit of a sail, and that was cool. We got to meet Helens new friend Richard and his mother. Got to see the tall ships, and all the people that came and visited them. It was a good week that’s for sure. I will miss having everyone around, and the excitement of seeing them every day. I really need to be more successful with the writing, so that we can do this more often. There’s no reason, why you can’t go to Ireland, the UAE, Columbia, and Edmonton every year for a visit, when you start being more successful with your writing career. Once you get good at this, and the money starts coming in, that is going to definitely become the next big priority. Take the feelings your going to have when everyone leaves, and use those, to really start putting your work out there. On all your platforms. The books, and the blog.

TIGERBLOOD: sure DAILYMOOD: good LOCATION: living room WORDSWRITTEN: none PUSHUPS: none TODO: say goodbyes, read, write TV: none BOOK: none GAME: none EXERCISE: none WEIGHT: 170 BREAKFAST: bacon & eggs LUNCH: avacado, almonds, olives, chicken DINNER: ribs, green beans SNACKS: orange, apple, grapes ALCOHOL: mojito BEDTIME: 11:00 AWAKE: 7:30