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Morning Pages Entry – May 06, 2014

So, there we go, yesterday I did my first of two days fasting for the week, and it went pretty easy. I did think about it a bit, but I didn’t obsess over it. If I do it enough, I’m sure, this can become a habit. The trick, is that, this time, I’m doing 600 calories, instead of zero on my fasting days. That’s the way your supposed to do it anyways. And, of course, I wasn’t hungry at all yesterday. It’s more of a mental thing to get through the day. It’s the times, when you feel like eating, just because your a bit bored, and want to keep your hands busy. But other then that, it’s a pretty easy day. And, definitely I do feel pretty energetic. I was cold last night walking with Sam and Zoey, but that’s what happens when I fast. When my body is not digesting food I do feel colder. But, the thing is, now I will get to the weight I want. It wasn’t all that hard, I didn’t obsess over it, and today on my non-fasting days, I will stick to my paleo diet and eat super healthy. It’s now been 67 days, counting today, that I’ve eaten any refined sugar, or junk food, or chocolate. I’m sure, that has to be a new record for me. Not that I’ve ever kept track of such a thing, but I highly doubt, that I’ve ever gone that many days without some sort of junk food. I have had a few glasses of wine in the process, but that’s not so bad. I do believe, that I may finally be on track to getting the weight down to where I want it. It’s exciting, to think, that I will finally get down to 155 pounds. I’m excited, to see what that actually looks like on me. I do need to start hitting the gym, or at least doing some body weight resistence exercises. I really wish my should and ankle would heal up faster then they are. I’m sure carrying less weight will help with the ankle, but it won’t do much for the shoulder. Maybe, I just need to start doing some work with it, to push it a bit. I suppose, that it really hasn’t been that long, since I’ve stopped playing. Has it been a month? I’m not sure. It feels like longer. I would love to be back on the squash courts again, but I would also like to do it injury free. And, I would like to be at 155 when I step back on the courts. If this 600 calorie fasting days work for me, then I should be able to drop it down to one day every week or every other week, just to maintain this weight. I’m sure it’s possible. Who, knows, maybe 150 is possible. I really don’t know, what my ideal weight is. I would like to have more muscle in the mix, but I don’t know where my body will settle to. I would think probably somewhere in the 150’s is good for me. At that weight, and with some muscle, it would be ideal for me. Once I get there, I will need some new goal, won’t I? Maybe, it will be to stick at that weight for a period of time. Can I hold 155 for a year or two or forever. Of course, the goal is to be forever. And, with muscle. That’s the trick. Get there with muscle. I haven’t complained about this for a while, but I’ve certainly been tired of having people (like Karen) in the house all week long. I do cheerish having the house to myself for times, especially during the week, when I’m doing my writing. It’s nice during the breaks, when I can just blast my music, and walk around and stretch or whatever. Yesterday I was a bit late going to bed again. Around midnight. That’s two nights in a row, but I don’t really feel all that tired. I thought I would be, but fasting days are always different. They may boost my overall energy somewhat. Certainly, on the fasting days, they boost my energy, but maybe, that will start to bleed over to other days. That would be cool. Maybe my need for sleep will drop a bit as well. That would be sort of cool. Lately, I’ve been finding, that 7 hours per night is fine. I feel pretty good with that. But, if it dropped to 6 or 6.5, I wouldn’t object. We’ll see how that goes.

TIGERBLOOD: yep DAILYMOOD: pretty good LOCATION: home office WORDSWRITTEN: none PUSHUPS: 2:00 plank TODO: editing TV: orphan black, game of thrones BOOK: none GAME: Batman Arkham City EXERCISE: walk 1 hour WEIGHT: 170 BREAKFAST: bacon & eggs LUNCH: none DINNER: none SNACKS: orange ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 12:00 AWAKE: 6:30


Morning Pages Entry – May 04, 2014

Well, maybe, today I will get out, and wax the boat. It’s supposed to be raining, but as I look out the window, the sun is shining. I haven’t checked the weather for Bayfield yet, but I’ll do that as soon as I finish this journal. This morning, I do feel a bit aprehensive about a few things. I think, it’s just the usual procrastinating about the boat thing going on. I’m just sitting here, and wondering, if I even cleaned the wax rags from last years waxing of the boat. It’s amazing, that I don’t think of that stuff till the very last second. And, my back feels a little sore this morning. I have been sitting too much doing work these days, that’s for sure. I do like working up stairs, but I don’t have a proper stand up desk for the laptop upstairs. I should look, and see if I can find something better. It wouldn’t be that hard to rig something up. Maybe, something I could take to the boat later. I think, I would worry so much less about things, if I knew, that the finances were taken better care of. Just, imagine, what it would feel like to wake up in the morning, and know, that you had no debt, and that there was extra money sitting in the bank. That would be nice. During the day, my brain seems to rationalize it’s way around the situation, but first thing in the morning, it’s more like my lizard brain is in high gear, and my rationale brain hasn’t kicked in yet. I do believe, that if I can just get this writing books thing into real production, and have a book coming out every month, that things will turn around in a big way. Like, a life changing sort of way. I really want that to happen. I’m just not good with distractions. Like have other things to do, like taxes, and boat maintenance. I have a hard time concentrating on those other things, when I do there’s one big thing (like publishing books and making money for instance) that needs to be worked on. It’s really a problem. I need for all that little shit to go away. All those little nagging things that persist through life. Things need to be simpler. Simpler and richer. And with more freedom. There’s really, just too much stuff in my life. That’s the problem. Too many annoying things. Too many responsibilities. It just never ends. Does it? Imagine, just being able to get up in the morning, with nothing to worry about. No financial problems, no house problems, no boat problems, no relationship problems, just simple shit. Every day, you can get up and do whatever you want, whenever you want. Imagine, if all you had to do was get up and write every day. Say write for half the day, then go and do whatever. With, nothing else to worry about. Nothing else eating at you. Can the money get you to that situation? I don’t know. It would probably get you closer. But, then, won’t you just want to get the rest of the way. Then, what do you fix? Relationships? Money can’t fix that. Health? That’s actually in pretty good condition at the moment. It’s still got about 15 pounds to go. Then how close to perfect would that be. These last 15 is a damn bitch. I really seem to be stuck at the 170 mark. That needs to move. Maybe getting out to the boat this summer will help. Not sure. You can get out, and do more walking. The food thing, likely won’t change much. I don’t know, if it will be harder or easier, to lose that next 15. The first 8 or 9 didn’t seem so bad over December, but the rest is being a major pain. And, I’ve been really good eating wise, in terms of junk food. I haven’t eaten any in over two months. You’d think, that would be enough to drop the weight. Which it has a bit, but so damn slowly. Just keep sticking to the plan, and staying the course I suppose. We’ll get there. Well, this has been a bit of a rambling writing session. Just feeling a bit unsettled this morning. I don’t like having a lot of things I’m supposed to be doing all jumping around inside my head. I need to purge a bunch of them. Well, maybe, I will get the boat waxed today. Let’s go check the weather.

TIGERBLOOD: a bit DAILYMOOD: good LOCATION: living room WORDSWRITTEN: none PUSHUPS: none TODO: wax boat TV: Delivery Man movie, orphan black BOOK: none GAME: Batman Arkham City EXERCISE: none WEIGHT: 170 BREAKFAST: bacon & eggs LUNCH: big ass salad DINNER: chicken tuscan salad (East Side Marios) SNACKS: orange, apple, grapes, almond butter ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 10 & 11:45 AWAKE: 7:30


Morning Pages Entry – May 01, 2014

So, today, the first of May, and where do we sit in the grand scheme of things. Hmmm, well Jennifer has moved home, which is sort of cool I think. Haven’t seen here a whole lot yet, but we’ve certainly seen a lot of her stuff. It’s been plunked in the living room cluttering up the whole place ever since she moved in. I’m sitting at around 171 pounds, and a bit annoyed with my weight loss. But, of course, yesterday, I took steps to remedy that. I did some intermetent fasting, by only eating about 600 calories. I’m thinking, that I will do that once a week. It’s that diet idea I watched the documentary about, where the guy fasted twice a week and restricted his diet to only 600 calories (500 if your a women), and lost a bunch of weight. It’s not just the weight loss that is important here though, it’s the other stuff your body can do, while it’s not digesting food all the time. Which is stuff like repairing cells and building new healthy cells. I tried it a bit myself, but actually did the 0 calories day approach. That drove me nuts, as I was constantly obsessing about food, and I ridiculously over ate on my non fasting days. I think that may have started me down a binge period with chocolate. So, we’ll do it the way they recommend, and just do the 600 calorie thing. I might be a little over, but yesterday all I ate was my regular breakfast of bacon and eggs and an orange. It’s actually my favorite meal of the day, so I don’t mind it really. It didn’t feel like a major difficulty yesterday. We’ll see how it goes. If the one day a week works, maybe at some point, we’ll bump it to two. We’ll see how I feel after a month or maybe even a few weeks. Twice a week would be better for sure, and would increase the weight loss, but I don’t want to make myself crazy with it. Maybe I’ll do next Monday, and see how it feels. I used to do Mon and Thursday. That would likely work again. I was playing squash on those days, as it took my mind off the food thing. I think, maybe I’ll just have to find something else to preoccupy my mind. Like maybe get some more writing done. Or, perhaps finish your taxes. Or, do something for the boat. That would be nice. Anyway, speaking of writing, the novel or more specifically, the editing of the novel, continues to move at a glacial pace in terms of completion. Although, I did get my first critique yesterday from the CritiqueCirlce website. It was a good one I thought. Some stuff, I had a feeling I’d get nailed on like too much narrative, but he also presented some other ideas, like the Colonel needed more motivation for deserting his troops. The critiquer thought he was a bit of a bastard for leaving his troops, and I must admit he would have to be. The question is, do I want him to be seen as a baster or not. I’m not opposed to the idea, but I’d rather it be a concious decision on my part, as opposed to leaving it to chance. Whichever, I do need to get this whole editing thing moving along much quicker. I’m still working my way through the story, and still have about 60000+ words to make a first good edit pass through. That’s quite a few words. I could get it done in 3 days I think at 20K per day, if I really focus. I really need to focus on that. I so want this done. even an initial pass, doesn’t make the thing perfect. Dave seems too busy to get through it at any pace, and the Critique Circle would also take forever using it as a free member. I would be fine paying for a membership, if I had a few partners to go through my novel in a private queue. Alternatively, I may just end up paying for a proofreader or line editor. I’m not sure the difference between the two, but that may be the approach I need. I really want to move quicker through this edit phase. An initial pass on my own would be good. I can certainly see, where you want to have an editor you can queue up ahead of time. Plus, if you can do the first good pass of editing after you write the chapter, then you can definitely send that chapter on to like Mark or Dave and have them review it while your writing the rest. That would be so much quicker.

TIGERBLOOD: yep DAILYMOOD: pretty good LOCATION: living room WORDSWRITTEN: none PUSHUPS: 2:00 plank TODO: editing TV: supernatural BOOK: none GAME: Batman Arkham City EXERCISE: none WEIGHT: 171 BREAKFAST: bacon & eggs LUNCH: none DINNER: none SNACKS: orange ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 11:45 AWAKE: 6:30


Morning Pages Entry – April 30, 2014

Ahh, so it looks like this will be another complete month of writing morning journals for me. That’s getting to me not such a big deal anymore. What I really want, is to have a story out there though. I’ve been reading a number of interesting posts on the Kindling FaceBook page about some huge success stories people have been having with their books, by promoting them through FaceBook ads. The last one, was about someone getting to over $10K per month within 5 months. That’s pretty impressive. FaceBook ads do seem to be pretty well targeted things, and books are a perfect fit for books. Not everything is good for advertising on FaceBook, but I think that books definitely are. People want to have fun on facebook, and anything to do with entertainment, is definitely a good fit. What I really need though, is to have some stories out there. I really want to have a product on the market that I can market. It will be nice to have something that I make some decent commissions on, instead of just pennies per click. Being able to sell a series of books at like $10 commission for the whole 5+ books in a series wold be a nice change. So, another question, that is coming up. Now that Jennifer has moved back home, it’s time to fix this families eating problems. Jennifer did mention, that she wanted to do a whole30 for the month of May. I would be up for that, given that my weight loss plans seem to be stalling again. It’s like I get to these plateaus of 175 or 170, and then I get stuck there. Right now, I seem to be stuck at 170ish. Maybe, I need to do a bit more of that intermittent fasting where you only do like 600 calories on certain days. I could just eat my eggs and bacon breakfast those days, and see what happens. I think I’ll do that today. In theory, that should be about a pound a week. As long, as I don’t go crazy on the regular feed days. Of course before when I tried it, I went for the 0 calories per day twice per week and that made me just a little bit nuts. So, do it instead, the way the program suggested instead, and stick to 600 calories on your fast days. You can do that no problem. Lately, I have been eating too much fruit and not working out since I’ve been laying off squash. I think, that’s why I’m stalling. I really really really want to get down to 155. That would be pretty incredible for me. So, starting today, I will go for two days per week with only 600 calories. That shouldn’t be too hard. By the end of May, I should be down to 165, no problem. Then it’s only two more months, and I hit my 155 number. Maybe sooner, if I can get a little more activity back into my routine. Although, I know I’m going to be a while still healing from these squash injuries. Which kind of sucks. Walking a lot is just not the same thing. Although, I will be doing a bunch of walking up at the boat this year. One or two walks everyday down the beach will be good for me. I need to drag Jessica out into doing those as well. They would be good for her as well. And, get herf to eat a bit better wouldn’t be such a bad thing as well. So, let’s get going and kick this thing into high gear. Get down to 155. I can do that. And, get this damn book out there so you can get started on the next one. That would really make my day. Get a cover done. Get the editing done. Get everything done, and start plotting the next one. It’s got to go faster then this one. Having three full length novels out there, and getting the word out about them, will get some cash flow going, and start to move things in the right direction again. That one guy did over 200K in his first year. My next 12 months could be like that, and things could be so different for me. Freedom, travel, toys, boats, and what have you. Not to mention creative expression on a scale beyond expectation. Then, the next plan, will be to get Dave and Mark (and maybe Tim) into the mix. That would be totally cool.

TIGERBLOOD: yep DAILYMOOD: good LOCATION: living room WORDSWRITTEN: none PUSHUPS: 3:30 wall sit TODO: editing TV: californication, mad men, game of thrones BOOK: none GAME: none EXERCISE: none WEIGHT: 171 BREAKFAST: bacon & eggs LUNCH: big ass salad DINNER: pulled pork SNACKS: orange, grapes (too many) ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 11:30 AWAKE: 7:00


Morning Pages Entry – April 23, 2014

So, I’m back to the basement again for the first time in a while writing my journal down here. I’ve noticed that my back is feeling a little bit sore these days, which I’m attributing to sitting down too much using the laptop in the upstairs living room. While, I enjoy the view much more from up there with the bay window, I suspect, that sitting in that chair and working all the time, is not the best thing for my back. I do believe that sitting has to be one of the worst things for your back, and when I’m working from up there, I don’t get as much opportunity to stand. There is no stand up desk up there. My basement office is much more ergonomic in that regards. Maybe, I need some sort of stand up gear up there. It’s probably also why, my back went out so bad at the boat last year. What with all the sitting down and working I was doing. I had no way to stand up and work there. I need to think of a better way of doing that. So, yesterday was interesting. I did manage to write my first critique on the CritiqueCircle.com website. I went sort of looking for a very beginner writer story that I could work on. Someone, that was actually worse then me. And, I found him. And, I did learn a lot about writing a critique in the process. I read a bunch of helpful tips and articles first before I wrote the actual critique. He was very guilty of using far too many words. Words, that didn’t really add much to the story. And, I know myself, that I do that quite a bit. I just did here. I need to work on being a little more brief and direct in my writing style. Especially when I do my first draft. If I could be more concise, and selective about choosing the right words when I’m doing my first draft, then of course my edits will get that much easier as well. I suppose, that I could practice doing that in my morning journals. I do I’m guilty of being too verbose here. The trick, would be to get to the point, where I’m being more concise in my word selection, without turning my internal editor on too much, and having him ruin the free flow of ideas. Especially in the draft stage. Today, now, I need to get at least a few thousand words out there for my first story on CritiqueCircle. Whatever you do though, don’t take forever getting your story ready for the site. I do want to go back, and edit my beginning chapter with some of what I’ve learned already about editing/critiquing. I’m sure, there are plenty of words that I can chop. The idea, is to get the piece out there, and get this editing back in gear again. I would like to have a 1st pass done on my story this week. Today, is already Wendesday, and I think, I’m less then half way through it. Although, I could likely push through, and get 60K words edited by the weekend. Depends on how much I can get through today with my submission to CritiqueCircle (CC). On the health side of things, the scale did seem to budge maybe a smidgen to the light side of 170. Certainly not 169, and perhaps, I’m being a bit too anal about this, but I would really like to get below that number. I haven’t been south of 170 in memory. I’m sure, I was probably down there in 1983, when I was marching with lancers, but I have not idea how light I was. Certainly, it wasn’t a healthy light. I didn’t have much muscle definition based on a few old pictures that I can see, and this time, if I can get to 155, then I will definitely have some muscle definition. But the trick is to get there. I certainly believe it will be easy to maintain it once I’m there. The month of March was pretty easy to maintain my weight, eating just about whatever I wanted as long as it didn’t have refined sugar in it. I ate fruit, nuts, whatever I wanted, and I stuck around 175. Now, since I’ve cut back on the fruit and nuts, I’ve managed to drop another 5 this month. I was hoping for another 10, but I’ll settle for 5 or maybe a little more.

TIGERBLOOD: yes DAILYMOOD: good – worried LOCATION: home office WORDSWRITTEN: critiquing PUSHUPS: 3:30 wall sit TODO: submit story to CC, editing TV: Mad Men BOOK: none GAME: none EXERCISE: walk for 70 minutes WEIGHT: 170 BREAKFAST: bacon & eggs LUNCH: none DINNER: ham, brocolli salad SNACKS: orange, grapes, apple ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 10:45 AWAKE: 7:00