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Morning Pages Entry – June 08, 2014

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Freedom is the holy grail being chased at the moment, and that’s a pretty big carrot to dangle in the balance of this writer. Making something so big out of something so small like writing can be as powerful as a paralyzing death ray from an old buck rogers episode. There, now was that so hard? You just wrote something so clever and amusing, and you didn’t really care. No one will read it … likely, and no one will ever care. Probably even if they did read it, they wouldn’t get it, so whatever. It’s time to write more like that. Just write, like your writing your morning journal pages, and let it all wash over you like it doesn’t really matter. Your writing really is, at it’s best when you just write for the sake of writing. Plot out something funny, then just fill in the blanks. No big deal. No big fuss. It’s it’s own best medicine. Trust me, you’ll feel better for it. So, no more writing about writing. Go read about writing, and read more about life, and read other stories, and just plain have fun with it … without the guilt … fuck the guilt. There’s no reasons for it really. Read everything, and write as much as you can without the downer shit. And be prolific. Write lots, and have fun with it, and get into the charcters and be in the moment and all that shit. So, to be more specific just write … or whatever. Focus and write. Write! So, were still at the swim meet here in Brock, one more session, and then we’re done. That’s fine. I wouldn’t mind another laptop that’s a little more portable then this one. That 11 inch dell ultrabook 3000 that I was looking at looks pretty cool. It would be nice, to just pick it up, and go somewhere and write. I like the idea of going and doing whatever. Go be alone in a crowd somehwere and make a scene … ha! See that’s funny again. Make a scene … get it? Sure you do, you wrote it. Make a scene. I like that author I found on the Kindle boards yesterday called StevenCampbell. Sure, initially, I just read him, because he had the same name as my brother (different spelling), but he’s a pretty witty guy, and all his responses on the boards seemed intelligent, which is not something you find there very often. A lot of those writers are all kind of touchy feely and sort of illogical at times. He’s funny, smart, and cuts to the matter of the matter, so to speak. I like that. It feels kind of warm in here today, but I think, that’s likely just me. Eating too much fruit and nuts yesterday, that’s for sure. I think, I could go with eating a little less stuff today. Although I’m still compliant with the whole30 and everything I ate yesterday, I certainly wasn’t ideal with the plan. Way too many nuts and fruits. Will have to do better with that today, which shouldn’t be too bad, since we are heading home today. Time to ice up the cooler, and load it up with food, and hit the road again … eventually. Still have a few hours of swim meet to content with. Wait wait wait. If you had a little skinny laptop, you could likely get around all that though couldn’t you. It might, even be an ideal environment for you to work in. Yesterday, down at the end of that hallway, I think, I could have likely written forever … in the refuge. That’s your zone. Somewhere in public, but kind of hidden from view. You certainly feel comfortable. It kind of goes back to one of your earliest college memories, where you were sitting in one of those chairs at the end of hallway, dreaming about creating the world for the perfect video game … little did I know, that I had unwitingly signed up for a college program that was all about business. Business …YECK! Apart of course, from the obvious aspect of making lots of money, who really cares about a business program. Computers are cool, and games are cool, and world building are cool, but why throw business into the mix. It’s kind of funny, but that “refuge” sign you took a picture of yesterday, could easily have been pointing to that very spot at Lambton College where you dreamed of that world. Your just living it backwards in time, like an episode of Dr Who. Increase your vocabulary. That would be a cool thing to do as well. If your going to write, you should be well armed afterall.

TIGERBLOOD: always DAILYMOOD: pretty good LOCATION: Hotel near Brock University WORDSWRITTEN: nada PUSHUPS: nada TODO: swim meet, write, TV: all kinds of junk on in the background BOOK: Bird by Bird GAME: 2048 EXERCISE: walking back and forth to the University WEIGHT: 170 BREAKFAST: eggs, chicken, tomato LUNCH: pork, avacado, greens DINNER: chicken, bell pepper, SNACKS: nuts, 2 lara bars, apple, orange, grapes, almond butter ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 11:45 AWAKE: 6:15

 

Morning Pages Entry – June 05, 2014

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Definitely behind the gun on this one. I have so much more work that I would have liked to get done on this manuscript before it goes to editing on Monday, that it’s ridiculous. Between dealing with this new diet thing, and dealing with Karens welching on the deal, and my own inaction and indecision the past few weeks has put me very behind. It’s ind of unfortunate. I will have to cram as much as I can this weekend to get some things done. Including, having Karen doing the driving, while I work on the laptop, and basically just doing as much as possible before Monday, to get the manuscript as complete as possible, before Emily touches it. I suppose, that I could just add to it after the fact, once she’s finished with it, but I’d really like to have as much in there for her to edit and proof as I can. Whatever I touch afterwards, is only more likely to have errors in it, when I publish. I need to be careful of that. In addition, now, it looks like we’re actually leaving a day earlier then I thought. Sam is actually swimming on Friday, so we need to leave Friday morning. I also, need to bring as much food as possible to get us through the 3 days, and stick to the whole30, and keep Sam and Jess fuelled enough to compete. She’s going to want the Powerade crap as well, and there’s no way she can take that stuff and stick to the whole30. That would be totally blowing the program. That crap is really not necessary. I should talk with Jennifer about it. I really don’t believe that stuff is necessary for what she’s doing. I mean she’s not even really training all that much this weekend. There is so much just standing around and doing nothing at a swim meet. There’s the hour of warmup, which is a pretty going 40-60 minutes, and then the actual heats. It’s not like she needs to load up on sugar, which is about all that shit is. I should talk with her about it. That crap really won’t get her anywhere. I’m just going to have to convince her of that. Or strike that. It’s really her decision about this. I’m not sure about how she’ll feel about that stuff. I mean, really, she has enough calories of fuel in her body, to get through the meal already. I read the “It Starts With Food” book more yesterday, and specifically, the section about how to deal with athletes, and they don’t promote as much extra carbs as I thought they would have. Really, she’s missing out on the protein before and after the workouts. She needs to get more of that going into her system. I will have to talk with her some more about that. At least, a handful of nuts or something before or after swim workouts would be good. That’s for sure. Now, back to your work thing. Basically, your at the point, where you need to crank out as many more words for this as you can. If you can do a list of everything you need food wise for the weekend, and come up with some sort of plan that will get you there, then you should be more focused on getting the writing work done. Use that new fargo.io outliner tool to come up with your list. I would, suspect, that if you cooked a bunch of meat up, and boiled a bunch of eggs, and packed a lot of veggies, that you could probably get through the weekend. Preferably stuff, that didn’t need to be cooked or refrigerated. I’m going to have to maybe get a bigger cooler or something for the weekend, to stash in the hotel room, but whatever. You need to know where we’re staying, and whether it has a microwave and a fridge there. You may have to go and get a bigger cooler from Canadian Tire or something. The more food you can cram into it, and take, the better off we will be. Maybe, even a plugin cooler that doesn’t need ice would be a good thing. We’ll see, what kind of list we can come up with. Your going to need to just shop for a shit load of stuff I think, but I’m sure you can do it. Maybe a trip to Costco as well today. Ahhhh! I’m not going to get nearly enough work done.

TIGERBLOOD: yep DAILYMOOD: everything from good to pissed LOCATION: home office WORDSWRITTEN: 700 PUSHUPS: 2:00 plank TODO: food plan/shop/cook for the weekend TV: Prophets Of Science Fiction BOOK: It Starts With Food GAME: 2048 EXERCISE: 1 hour walk WEIGHT: 169 BREAKFAST: bacon & ham & tomato LUNCH: big ass salad DINNER: slow cooked pork, green beans, bell pepper and sauce SNACKS: raw cashews ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 11:45 AWAKE: 6:15

 

Morning Pages Entry – May 08, 2014

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So, today, we’re off to the boat to get it ready for launch. I’m hoping, to get the tarp off and get the hull waxed, but I have to be home by 2:30 to get the kids off to the pool. It’s only 6:30 now, so should have a few hours to get things done. Hopefully, the thunderstorms will stop. They’re only supposed to be going on this morning, but I haven’t checked the weather yet. It’s always a bit of a squeeze to get this shit done it seems. The boat launches next Wednesday, which is only 6 days away. Shouldn’t be a problem. I still have the weekend to do things. It is the Hollandia swim meet this weekend, but I will miss most of it. Not a problem for me. So, I seem to be finding too many distractions working back downstairs in the basement again. Gotta quit doing that, and focus on getting more words edited per day. Just because you have a deadline that’s easy, is no reason to start slacking now. The quicker you can get the first pass of editing done on this book, the better it will be. You’ll have time to do more rewriting, and maybe a bit more fleshing out of character back stories, and zombie back stories, and research into guns and weapons and stuff. All stuff that you never did up front, but if you do it now, it will come in handy for this story and all the rest of the series. Plus, the sooner you get all that done, the sooner you can start working on the structure and plot of the next novel. The next one, that will be written quicker, and out the door in record time. A month would be ideal, but if it lands out there within two months I’d be happy. There’s no reason, why you shouldn’t be able to do that. So, by the end of summer, you could have 3 or 4 books on the shelves. That would be cool. Then money should start kicking in. I’m going to just start publishing, and not worry too much about the marketing thing. Maybe, do the odd thing here and there. I would like, if I could just write and publish. That would be the most fun thing. And, it has worked for some people. Although I have to wonder about the FaceBook ads. If those do get you more face time in front of potential readers, then that has to be a good thing. It would likely be worth it. If you make more then you spend, then, it’s always worth it. I be happy to spend 10K per year on facebook ads, if it got more attention for the novels, and sold another 100K per year. It seems to work out about the way for Johnny Jam Pederson on the Kindling facebook page. Will have to see how that goes. Getting the books out there, and getting some cash flowing in, is the priority right now. Especially with the 60 day waiting period with Amazon. That’s a bit of a pain in the butt, but something you have to get through. Once you start making the money though, it becomes irrelevant. Just need to get some books out there. Well, I hope the weather is going to cooperate today, so I’m not working out in the rain. Actually, I just won’t be going, if it’s going to be raining. Can’t wax in the rain. As soon as I’m done with this journal, I’m going to be heading out there. Today is a 600 calorie fasting day as well, so that coordinates pretty well. Since, I’ll be working on the boat all morning and early afternoon, then not having to worry about eating is a good thing. I should like bring some bottles of water to drink though. Don’t want to neglect that side of things. Well, time to finish this journal, here’s to looking for a great summer, with the boat, and with the family, and with the writing as well. I had hoped to have a few books on the shelves before the boat splashed into the water, but it looks like that won’t happen. I can however, have a few on the shelves before it comes out. Maybe 5 books if I really push it. That would be nice, going into the winter. Having half a dozen books on the shelves before Christmas would be awesome. Could be the best Christmas in a long time.

TIGERBLOOD: maybe DAILYMOOD: ok LOCATION: home office WORDSWRITTEN: editing PUSHUPS: 2:00 plank TODO: wax the boat TV: the 70s show BOOK: none GAME: PES soccer game EXERCISE: none WEIGHT: 170 BREAKFAST: bacon & eggs LUNCH: big ass salad DINNER: none SNACKS: orange, grapes, apple, almond butter ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 11:00 AWAKE: 6:30

 

Morning Pages Entry – April 06, 2014

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Ah well, here we are on a Sunday morning at almost 9:30, and I’ve returned home from a swim meet. What’s sort of amazing, is that we finished so quickly and are home so early. Samantha was supposed to swim this morning, but was feeling sick again. She’s just worn down again, from too much work, not enough sleep, and too much junk food. She just stumbled downstairs feeling sort of crappy, and looking pretty out of it. I’m actually writing this upstairs with some music playing in the background, and talking to Sam at the same time. I don’t usually try writing these with someone else in the room, but we’ll see how this goes. I’m feeling pretty good this morning, even though we were at the meet for 6:45 or so this morning. I got up around 6:15, which means, I still got about 7 hours of sleep, so that’s pretty good. This eating super healthy and cutting back on the fruits and the nuts this month, I think, is going to be a pretty good thing, at least for how I feel. I really hope, that I can get the weight down. Which I’m sure I should be able to do. I did do it in September, so we’ll see how that happens. It’s definitely worth a try. This journal is going to be one of my slower ones for sure, given, that I keep getting distracted here. But, let’s for the moment get back to the whole weight thing. I’m felling pretty energetic this morning. Probably because of the super healthy eating, and the fact, that I’m not doing a lot of strenous squash playing these days either. Got out for a couple of good walks though yesterday. Did a 30 minute walk coming back from dropping the van off to get fixed, then did my usual 60 minute walk after supper, which I had quite a bit of energy for. I need to translate this energy into my work as well. That’s sort of part of the game plan. Don’t devote any energy to worrying about shit this week, just put it towards writing writing writing. I have to wonder, if I feel this good at around 173 pounds, how I would feel at 165 or 155 . . . holy crap, that would have to be awesome. Be like a teenager 😉 For sure, that much energy would be pretty cool. My energy level right now, feels like I could tear up a squash court. If of course it wasn’t for my sore ankle, sore elbow, and sore shoulder. I could deal the the ankle and elbow, but the shoulder is definitely a problem. I still have the club championship to deal with this week. Could have to play twice actually, if I beat Dean in the first match. That would be cool, if I could beat him. There’s no reason, why I can’t move like a good player though. Especially, if my energy levels are like they are today. That’s for sure. We’ll see how it goes. Basically, I’ll just be a retriever and be somewhat selective about when I can hit with pace. I would really like to kick Deans butt. That’s for sure. Never played him in a proper match before, so we’ll see how it goes. I certainly, wasn’t that motivated to win my first match against Bob Martin last Tuesday. I was thinking, that I had to go to the consolation round anyways. If I was 155 pounds, instead of 173, and I was injury free, then hell yes, I could challenge at for winning the division, no problem. But not these days. Maybe, next year. We’ll see how that goes. Do I really need to play at all during the summer to keep my game up? Not so sure about that. Actually, keeping my fitness level would likely be the most important thing. Correction, not “keeping my fitness level”, but more to the point would be actually improving my fitness level. Improving my fitness level dramatically. That’s what I’ll be looking to be doing. No more losing to these fucking punks out there, with their horrible shot making crap. Game, Dave, Kieth and David. Those guys don’t have an inkling of the squash strategies that I do. Their just in better shape then I am at the moment. Well, all that is about to change. It’s time to be smart about how I train for this. No more crap in this body, and time to really challenge for a spot on a “B” team for next year.

TIGERBLOOD: yep DAILYMOOD: happy (except when karen had one of her melt downs again) LOCATION: living room WORDSWRITTEN: 0 PUSHUPS: 2:00 wall sits TODO: walk, plot, eat TV: supernatural BOOK: descent series GAME: none EXERCISE: none WEIGHT: 173 BREAKFAST: bacon & eggs LUNCH: big ass salad DINNER: pulled pork SNACKS: orange ALCOHOL: none BEDTIME: 11:00 AWAKE: 6:15